Giants

GiantsAge 4 is a turning point for me.

I remember the day clearly. I am with my parents at some grown up gathering. There are lots of people there, but everyone looks like a giant to me.

I am standing in the middle of a sea of giant legs. I don’t know where my mom and dad are. Where are they?

I start feeling afraid. It’s like these giants are going to knock me down or step on me.

If I could only find my dad. I’d grab onto his leg and be safe.

There he is! I go over and grab onto his leg. I hear people laughing. Then I realize it isn’t my dad and people are laughing at me for making a mistake.

Now I’m twice as scared. I’m lost, alone and people are laughing at me.

That’s the first day I remember thinking that the world wasn’t a safe place. It’s my first conscious experience of the deep feeling like I wasn’t going to survive. But it won’t be the last.

The following years that feeling of being lost and alone stays with me. I get more mental, which shows up in being good at math and being very, very shy around people. It’s a defense.

But underneath it all, there is fear. No amount of being mental fixes that. And that fear stays with me for a long time.

But there is a light at the end of that dark tunnel. It just takes some time to get to it…

All the best for your health and happiness,

Dr. Bruce Eichelberger

__CONFIG_colors_palette__{"active_palette":0,"config":{"colors":{"62516":{"name":"Main Accent","parent":-1}},"gradients":[]},"palettes":[{"name":"Default Palette","value":{"colors":{"62516":{"val":"rgb(19, 114, 211)","hsl":{"h":210,"s":0.83,"l":0.45}}},"gradients":[]},"original":{"colors":{"62516":{"val":"rgb(19, 114, 211)","hsl":{"h":210,"s":0.83,"l":0.45}}},"gradients":[]}}]}__CONFIG_colors_palette__
__CONFIG_colors_palette__{"active_palette":0,"config":{"colors":{"49806":{"name":"Main Accent","parent":-1},"3a0f6":{"name":"Accent Light","parent":"49806","lock":{"saturation":1,"lightness":1}}},"gradients":[]},"palettes":[{"name":"Default","value":{"colors":{"49806":{"val":"var(--tcb-skin-color-0)"},"3a0f6":{"val":"rgb(238, 242, 247)","hsl_parent_dependency":{"h":209,"l":0.95,"s":0.36}}},"gradients":[]},"original":{"colors":{"49806":{"val":"rgb(19, 114, 211)","hsl":{"h":210,"s":0.83,"l":0.45,"a":1}},"3a0f6":{"val":"rgb(240, 244, 248)","hsl_parent_dependency":{"h":209,"s":0.36,"l":0.95,"a":1}}},"gradients":[]}}]}__CONFIG_colors_palette__
Previous
__CONFIG_colors_palette__{"active_palette":0,"config":{"colors":{"49806":{"name":"Main Accent","parent":-1},"3a0f6":{"name":"Accent Light","parent":"49806","lock":{"saturation":1,"lightness":1}}},"gradients":[]},"palettes":[{"name":"Default","value":{"colors":{"49806":{"val":"var(--tcb-skin-color-0)"},"3a0f6":{"val":"rgb(238, 242, 247)","hsl_parent_dependency":{"h":209,"l":0.95,"s":0.36}}},"gradients":[]},"original":{"colors":{"49806":{"val":"rgb(19, 114, 211)","hsl":{"h":210,"s":0.83,"l":0.45,"a":1}},"3a0f6":{"val":"rgb(240, 244, 248)","hsl_parent_dependency":{"h":209,"s":0.36,"l":0.95,"a":1}}},"gradients":[]}}]}__CONFIG_colors_palette__
Next

Liked this post? Share it!

FacebookGoogleLinkedInTwitter